Sweet Dreams

Sweet surrender
like into a dream
liquid vivid memories
flooding me
so intense
like it never went away
like i was never far
like this
tongue sailing over
my lips
quick breathing
soothing words
but so distant
words that lie sweetly
in my ears
almost incoherant
and with suddering
avoidance
but i am so enraptured
how could i dare complain
terrified of the hold on me
my feet betray me
and slide backwards
forwards
unsure of my emotions
and power of my self-control
when all i want
is the the intimacy
that he and i built
so long ago
it almost doesn't feel
real