So Lost

it is night
and far from
when
I saw it all
like I did
in that light
hear their
laughter
ringing
and ring loud
feel the fever
burning
and burn hot
it did

it is night
and I can’t see
the way I could
lose all of that
and those
feelings
in me are
so buried now
but slightly glimmering
beyond the soil

a song, a smell
returns it all
a voice, a call
a thought, a look
and I think back
to the way
before the birth
of my new life
back when I was
damaged
lost
and fun