Wednesday Night Car Ride

You are looking at me
Anticipating my thoughts
As if to catch them

You are there beside me
Afraid to touch me
and terrified to be nice

You are there but looking away
wishing you were somewhere else
far from here

You are kissing my face
fumbling with buttons
and pretending it’s not me

You are there whispering to me
in a cruel tone, dirty words
and I felt cemented in place

You are there holding me
and for a split second
it feels nice and un-fabricated

You are there but not really
and maybe I wish things were better
and far from this