So Lost

it is night
and far from
when
I saw it all
like I did
in that light
hear their
laughter
ringing
and ring loud
feel the fever
burning
and burn hot
it did

it is night
and I can’t see
the way I could
lose all of that
and those
feelings
in me are
so buried now
but slightly glimmering
beyond the soil

a song, a smell
returns it all
a voice, a call
a thought, a look
and I think back
to the way
before the birth
of my new life
back when I was
damaged
lost
and fun

Negstive HCG

The dark place
that my emptiness brings me
shadows that surround
the shade and gloom
organs fail
as do my moods
and hopes fade
with malfunction
empty and
sad
the happy façade
put on for all
comes crashing down
like tyndall stone
the absence
envelops
and covers
like a heavy blanket
and the thunder
with pangs
of lightning
echo
my sentiment
to a tee